Logbook

12 Months of Baby

Three bodies, three ages, one shared journey. Christian, Adi and Louella walk through the 12 stages of infant motor development — and document everything, in real time.

May 2026 — May 2027 · Tenerife · Brussels · Berlin
Month 1 of 12 — The First Breath
Day 18 / 365

The project

For 12 months, we are retracing the path our bodies walked in the first 12 months of life. Foetal position. Crawling. Rolling over. Sitting up. Standing. Walking. Each month, one stage. Each stage, a rediscovery.

This journal documents the journey as it is lived — not as it should unfold. The surprises, the resistances, the discoveries. Three different bodies, three different lives, the same floor.

Christian

Former athlete · Tenerife

Former high-level athlete turned body explorer. 25 years of research, a thousand lives traversed. He discovered awareness through movement.

Adi

Co-explorer · Tenerife

Connected within the memory of the body, with a true sense of what life represents. The counterpoint that enriches every observation.

Louella

Movement & Dance · Berlin

20 years old. No school, no education through the intellect — nothing but movement. What happens when a young, trained body retraces the path of the newborn? An incredible observation to witness.

Back to the Floor

From the 12 Months of the Baby programme · Louella · Berlin, 5 June 2026

The floor, rediscovered — the floor exploration of the 12 Months of Baby programme, rediscovered in adult awareness.

Manandah Exploration · Louella · Berlin, 2026

The improvisation — a body expressing itself from within. Bodily intelligence at work.

Logbook

Month 1 — The First Breath

Month 1 — Stage 3 · Week 8

Day 55: The Sense of Movement

Between the two doors, there are layers — the skeleton, organs, blood, lymph, gravity. All of this, simultaneously, in every movement. And yet the compass remains simple: you feel when it's right. That is the true sense of movement.

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Month 1 — Stage 3 · Week 8

Days 52 → 54: Silence

Silent familiarisation. Integration continues.

Month 1 — Stage 3 · Week 8

Day 51: Between the Two Doors

The head-coccyx axis as the natural continuation of the first two stages. Two limits, two doors — and between them, everything. The organs. The life that circulates. And an analogy that says it all: you enter through one door, you leave through another. What do you do between the two?

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Month 1 — Stages 2–3 · Weeks 7–8

Days 46 → 50: Week of silence

Five days of silent familiarisation with Stage 3. Integration continues without a written entry.

Month 1 — Stage 2 · Week 7

Day 45: You Move Life

This morning, a wave of emotion. The first time in my life I truly feel the sensation of life in my body. Moving the toes, the feet, the legs — you move life. Not an idea. A sensation. The miracle of being alive, and the infinite possibilities that entails.

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Month 1 — Stage 2 · Week 7

Day 44: Movement Comes from Within

Oral grounding is no longer a practice — it is a presence. Sitting, lying down, on the floor, on the grass: something organises itself from within, all the time. A long-standing pain has gone. And a new sensation: movement comes from the structure, no longer from the muscles. The spine is alive. Everything is alive.

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Month 1 — Stage 2 · Week 7

Day 43: Day of silence

No entry this day. Integration continues in silence.

Month 1 — Stage 2 · Week 6

Day 42: The Freedom to Initiate

Movement can be initiated from everywhere — the organs, the blood, the fluids, the points near the body's centre. What the baby does naturally, without deciding it. When the nervous system is no longer in survival mode, it releases its protective posture — and everything opens. At 57, wanting a whole other life to explore all this.

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Month 1 — Stage 2 · Week 6

Day 41: Confidence Comes from the Body

The slide that organised the pelvis and spine for weeks reveals itself as universal — hand on the table, feet, femoral necks. Every micro-displacement changes the relationship with gravity and opens movement without effort. And this discovery says something beyond the body: confidence does not come from the mind. It rises from the body.

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Month 1 — Stage 2 · Week 6

Day 40: The Femoral Neck and the Swell

This morning: the lotus opens, the femoral necks gain in range of motion — the body answers the commitment. This afternoon: on a friend's boat, the swell as an involuntary laboratory of the centre of gravity. The nervous system adapts without conscious decision. And tonight — what the body will integrate during sleep.

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Month 1 — Stage 2 · Week 6

Day 39: The Clarity of Movement

The Tai Chi walk arrives as recognition: the same principles as the twelve baby stages, in another language. Slowness as a magnifying glass on structure. And the phrase that imposes itself: the clarity of movement cleanses mental noise.

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Month 1 — Stage 2 · Week 6

Day 38: The Skeleton Leads

The reptilian slide is now installed in everything. I no longer begin any exercise without sliding first. The skeleton moves first — sometimes barely — and it changes everything in the relationship to gravity. New today: sliding on the sit bones, on the heel. A direct connection to the inner structure.

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Month 1 — Stage 2 · Week 6

Day 37: Moving Through Structure

Before turning, one slides. Over the muscles surrounding the structure, the deep tissues. The centre of gravity shifts — and the rotation happens almost on its own. The reptile doesn't push: it slides. Moving through structure is entirely different from moving through force.

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Month 1 — Stage 2 · Week 6 · Adi

Day 36: What the Body Has Memorised

The mouth closes automatically the moment she stops thinking about opening it. Not forgetting — conditioning. And the discovery that the oral zone releases a frozen lower back: the mouth as a key to a lock no one had found from the outside.

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Month 1 — Stage 2 · Week 5 · End of week

Day 35: Millions of Years

Today's discovery is not a sensation — it's an understanding. The baby doesn't merely develop motor skills: it retraces the entire history of evolution. Cellular breathing, head-tail connection, reptilian pattern, the crossed walk of mammals. Millions of years compressed into twelve months.

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Month 1 — Stage 2 · Week 5

Day 34 · Silence

No observations this day. The exploration integrates silently into yoga practice — that is already an answer.

Month 1 — Stage 2 · Week 5

Day 33: The Reptile

Synthetic grass and bare floor — two surfaces, one interior organisation. When the centre is central, everything adapts. And the discovery of the day: before turning, the body slides. The paravertebral muscles slide on the floor like a reptile. More surface, more contours.

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Month 1 — Stage 2 · Week 5

Day 32: Beyond the Mat

Bare floor, no mat. The tuning fork is acquired. And something new: oral grounding leaves the session and enters the day. Free lips while walking the dog. Yoga transformed. The oral underlayer releases the pelvis, unrolls the feet.

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Month 1 — Stage 2 · Week 5

Day 31: The Tuning Fork

Bare floor, no mat. The skull reads the surface, revealing its geography. Rotation starts from the sternum — the neck releases. And for the first time: both shoulder blades slide together. Tuning fork sensation, left and right in total reversibility.

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Month 1 — Stage 2 · Week 5

Day 30 · Silence

No observations this day. A deliberate choice — the body too has the right to be silent.

Month 1 — Stage 2 · Week 5

Day 29: Ida, Pingala

Tenerife. The right side remains silent — and that is information, not a problem. The body is not symmetrical. Ida on the left, Pingala on the right: two different organisations. And Viveka, the discriminating intellect, observing without judging.

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Month 1 — Stage 2 · Week 4

Day 28: The Silence of the Right

Tenerife, yoga mat. First day of Stage 2 — Mouthing. The head rolls, the jaw releases. And something unexpected: the left shoulder blade participates fully. The right one stays silent. The body is already mapping its asymmetry.

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Month 1 — The First Breath · Week 4

Day 27 · Silence

No observations this day. A deliberate choice — the body too has the right to be silent.

Month 1 — The First Breath · Week 4

Day 26: The Flies

Garden, Tenerife. Without wind, without AOM, the body's contours are vague. The fly legs are enough to completely disturb the nervous system. It is not the size of the contact that matters — it is the signal.

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Month 1 — The First Breath · Week 4

Day 25: Rest

Synthetic grass, Tenerife. The noise clears. For the first time, settling is complete and rest is too — the body now knows not only how to land, but how to stay.

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Month 1 — The First Breath · Week 4

Day 24: Identification

Synthetic grass, Tenerife. Ahankara colonises even the fetal position — wanting the ideal image rather than the comfortable one. When the criterion of the perfect image is released, the body finds its rest instantly.

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Month 1 — The First Breath · Week 4

Day 23: The Wind

Synthetic grass, Tenerife. The violent wind reveals the body's contours. After ground and the "Aoum", a third form of contact: the wind sweeps across suspended parts and makes them perceptible to the nervous system.

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Month 1 — The First Breath · Week 4

Day 22: The Boundaries

Floor + yoga mat, Berlin. Collapse is now total — the body seeks release on its own. On the floor, trying to define one's physical boundaries reveals the obvious: without contact, we don't know where we end. And sound — the AOM — maps the contours that the floor alone cannot reach.

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Month 1 — The First Breath · Week 3

Day 21: The Body Doesn't Lie

Two surfaces in one session: lawn then hardwood floor. The nervous system travels from discomfort to discomfort. The meditative state is not a technique — it is leaving the nervous system in peace. The body doesn't lie. The mind can tell any story on top.

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Month 1 — The First Breath · Week 3

Day 20: The Permanent Costume

When the body truly releases, it becomes very heavy — it takes the shape of the floor. The nervous system permanently redistributes tensions. What remains when you remove everything? The first 12 months — the only thing that precedes all the costumes.

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Month 1 — The First Breath · Week 3

Day 19: The Platform

On cold tiles, Christian falls into an incredible depth of sleep — and understands why the body is the platform for all experience. Less internal noise, more signal. Nineteen days of silent construction.

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Month 1 — The First Breath · Week 3

Day 18: Breathing Elsewhere

In the garden, eyes open on a stone, Christian discovers that breathing pushes against the floor. So he chooses: keep the contact, and send the air elsewhere — upward. A new freedom, made possible by settling.

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Month 1 — The First Breath · Week 3

Day 17: Fifty Years

On the sofa, between sleep and waking, a face appears — that of a classmate forgotten for fifty years. Sensory memory does not need to be sought. It rises when the body is safe.

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Month 1 — The First Breath · Week 3

Day 16: The Micro-Movement

In the garden after yoga, Christian discovers the baby's micro-movements: the constant reversibility of the nervous system cancels discomfort, partially neutralises sensory memory and the intellect, and increases the contact surface with the floor.

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Month 1 — The First Breath · Week 3

Day 15: The Boundary

Back on the hard floor. Christian discovers that adaptation has become instant — separating the knees, the hands, increasing the contact surface with the floor. And a fundamental reflection emerges: the point is not to challenge the exterior, but to dance with it — without identification.

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Month 1 — The First Breath · Week 2

Day 14: Falling Asleep

Back on the sofa. Christian finds his place in one minute and falls asleep. Wakes up in the same position. The letting go has become instant. Week 2 closes with complete surrender.

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Month 1 — The First Breath · Week 2

Day 13: Why Search?

After settling, the body takes the next step: staying. No more exploration, no more accumulation. The nervous system accepts without storing. When comfort is there, why look elsewhere?

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Month 1 — The First Breath · Week 2

Day 12: Settling

The body returns to the floor. And a fundamental question emerges: settling. The baby does it without effort — it is placed down, and it is there. The adult must relearn it, one exhalation at a time.

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Month 1 — The First Breath · Week 2

Day 11: The Garden

For the first time, the body goes outside. Sun, wind, waves — the nervous system is pulled in every direction. Comfort and discomfort vanish beneath the flood of sensations. And a question: who decides to change the surface?

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Month 1 — The First Breath · Week 2

Day 10: The Anaesthesia

Breathing crosses the body like a wave. The face wakes as if from dental anaesthesia. And Adi lives the counterpart of liberation: what opened the day before is raw today.

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Month 1 — The First Breath · Week 2

Day 9: Just There

No more searching, no more analysis, no more scanning. The baby does not search — it settles. And when the body stops searching, it finds: a moment between waking and sleeping, warm and exuberant.

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Month 1 — The First Breath · Week 2

Day 8: Everything Inside Everything

First day of the second week. No postulate, no imitation. The body settles and awareness shifts inward. Contours disappear. And after the Day 7 session — dancing and tears.

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Month 1 — The First Breath

Day 7: The Wax Mask

Back to the floor after the bed. The shoulder is resolved — the head is the new frontier. The face melts under gravity like a wax mask. And a realisation: this approach is thought, and known as thought.

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Month 1 — The First Breath

Day 6: The Cocoon

Change of terrain: the bed, complete darkness, bare skin. Christian discovers micro-adjustments — exactly what a baby does. Adi finds near-perfect symmetry between sides.

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Month 1 — The First Breath

Day 5: The Rocking

Boat rocking transforms into a baby-cradle sensation. Dorsal breathing reaches 1.5 cycles per minute. Adi falls asleep on the floor. Louella feels energy at her fingertips.

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Month 1 — The First Breath

Day 4: The other surface

We switch everything. Christian to the sofa, Adi to the floor. Two surfaces, two opposite revelations. The sofa absorbs, the floor awakens. The baby moves between them constantly.

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Month 1 — The First Breath

Day 3: The edges beneath comfort

When one layer releases, the next reveals itself. Internal edges appear, an underlying torsion unveils. The body doesn't free itself — it discovers itself.

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Month 1 — The First Breath

Day 2: The body begins to speak

Day 1, you discover. Day 2, the body reacts. The fly, the intellect that wants to lead, and a nervous system that says no.

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Month 1 — The First Breath

Day 1: The floor and I

Three bodies, three perceptions. Christian reads surfaces, Adi the visceral, Louella pure fusion. And the heavy head that unites all three.

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